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Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it?

It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart

and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up

all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can

hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person,

wanders into your stupid life... You give them a piece of you. They didn't

ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you,

and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostage. It gets inside

you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase

like maybe we should be just friends turns into a glass splinter working

its way into your hearth. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in

the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain

I hate love